X FACTOR star Janet Devlin has bravely opened up on her "failed suicide attempts" and the "dark place" she found herself in following the ITV show.
The Northern Irish singer was just 17 when she finished the 2011 series in fifth place, wowing audiences with her sweet look and soft vocal tone.
Shortly afterwards she was whisked off to Sheffield – miles away from her family – to record an album and a year later, she realised she had a "definite problem" with booze.
Speaking candidly to today's Loose Women Janet, now 25, told how her situation had felt "isolating" and said: "When I was in social situations I did turn to alcohol to give me a confidence boost."
She was asked by the panel when she realised her boozing was serious, to which she let out a nervous laugh and said: "Maybe the failed suicide attempts."
Janet said: "I don't know the moment it got really dark.
"But I just woke up one day with a bottle of gin under my pillow, every day.
"Before I went to work I would have a drink – it then went down hill for me."
Janet explained how she never planned any of the attempts to take her own life, and they usually came about when she was drunk following a night out.
She bluntly told how she thought her mum w as always waiting at home by the phone for bad news about her, and said: "I am so glad I am not causing her the same pain now."
Clearly hugely troubled at the time, she surmised it was the "incessant voice" in her head that led her to drink.
Yet thankfully Janet managed to pull herself out of the horribly dark place when she joined Alcoholics Anonymous.
She added the sessions felt like: "The first day of the rest of my life."
Janet is now set to release autobiography, My Confessional, as well as new music of the same name.
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